New beginnings, literature and "good" change

Hey there.
The last time I made a blog post was about 6 months ago...
And, well, not that much has happened since then. However, I had the opportunity to see my favourite singer perform live, something I've been wanting to do since 5 years ago. It was truly unbelievably amazing, it was a day I'll never ever forget.
I drifted apart from a couple of my close friends, but at the same time, I got to know more people. Like really well. I guess where there's an end, there's always a new beginning. It's just hard to tell whether the new chapter is worth it, whether it'll really be that much better or ever compensate for something you lost.
I've fallen in love with literature. Hemingway, Remarque, even Shakespeare - I've actually started just enjoying it all without the pressure of school or friends and family. If you would've told the child version of me that at the age of 15 I'd rather be cuddled in with a book and a cup of tea rather than having fun with my friends on weekends, I would've called you insane. But here I am! In fact, I'm going to the annual Book Fair of Lithuania tomorrow and I'm super excited. Ironically, I used to hate being dragged into such events a couple years ago... I guess change is inevitable.
Change is a strange thing, really. It's something you can't escape and it's hard telling whether it's something good or terrifying. I personally dislike change, at least people-wise. I hate it when a good friend becomes someone perhaps more focused and sophisticated, but at the same time colder and less caring. I hate seeing optimistic people become quiet and upset. But those examples are all quite negative. I guess I should really start opening up my eyes, broadening my horizons and realising that there is a lot of good change around us as well -  the weather getting warmer, a close friend becoming braver, more open, gaining more self confidence, understanding others better, or even getting a new pet. Major changes in our lives happen every day and, as difficult as change is, it actually can be very good.
So, there we have it. Just a little review of things I've started to realise this year. I've still got lots to learn and discover. Here's to an awesome 2015! :)

Weight - what's the big deal?

Weight - what's the big deal?

So, this topic covers a huge amount of information and a variety of different perspectives. 

To start off, I'm not one to care TOO much about my appearance, weight, eating habits and things of this sort. That being said, I obviously don't just eat anything my eyes see or unhealthy things all day - that's not what I'm saying. What I'm trying to explain is that I don't feel self conscious about myself, specifically my weight, too often.

And why should I? Why should any of us? I mean, if we have a healthy weight. We can eat a little bit of every type of food and as long as we enjoy it, as long as it makes us happy, in the end, weight does not matter. 

I'm starting to sound very controversial, even to myself, so let me try to explain this all a little bit better. There is a difference between staying healthy, taking care of yourself and starving yourself, worrying too much about the numbers on a scale. It's important to keep a healthy way of eating, exercising and, well, living, but we can't let that get to our heads. I find it so sad when girls my age, or, in fact, any age, stress so much about their diets and only order salads all the time (or don't order any food at all). I mean, it's alright, if that's what you love to eat, but it isn't the most important thing. This whole "staying skinny" and "fitting peoples' expectations" thing isn't even silly - it's just disappointing. It disappoints me that the world has gotten to a point where even children feel the need to skip a meal just to appear "prettier". It frightens me that suddenly life is about the size of your clothes or the portions you eat and not actual joy.
So forget about it all and smile.
You look fine in that dress.
You can eat after 6pm.
 You can buy some candy and chocolate for yourself.
Because no one in this world has the right to judge you based on that number on a scale - that doesn't define you. 

My thoughts

My thoughts

I guess I should make a quick statement before I go on writing about anything and everything I encounter in life that really makes me think.. You don't need to know my name or my life story or anything like that. I'm making this blog just because this is what I like to do - write, and diaries are just really annoying and hard to keep up with. So in this blog, you'll be able to scroll through a whole bunch of random stuff that my brain happens to come up with throughout the day. Or night. Yeah, usually night. Some of these ideas may be completely controversial, but let's remember that this blog is all about MY opinions and MY thoughts and I sure don't wanna get into any arguments with my.. readers.. which I won't really have, but oh well. Just to put it out there :)